The Beginning At Last

Within Myself

—

by

Kevin
in

Giving up

No will to fight

I have these thoughts

Most every night

There is no point

There is no end

I block it out

It plays again

A constant loop

Within my mind

How you must know

I’m not your kind

Alone I sit

Alone I’ll stay

Within myself

I’ll spend my day

©The Beginning At Last

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58 responses to “Within Myself”

  1. Stella Reddy Avatar
    Stella Reddy

    🌞

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      😊

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  2. Kymber Hawke Avatar
    Kymber Hawke

    This poem touched my heart. I hope he is able to find his way to living again.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, Kymber. I am sure he’s a resilient sort 🙏

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  3. Laura Avatar
    Laura

    I’m with Kymber – I hope he is able to find his way again, a sad poem indeed

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      I’m sure he’ll bounce back. He usually does. 😉

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      1. Laura Avatar
        Laura

        Always happy when he does 🤪

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        It is the preferred state, but tough to maintain some days.

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      3. Laura Avatar
        Laura

        When you realize how worthy you are…
        😉

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      4. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Well, therein lies the rub lol

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      5. Laura Avatar
        Laura

        What the hell, I just wrote this on one of my draft post a few days ago 😆 now I have to delete it lmao

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      6. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Sorry 🤷‍♂️

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      7. Laura Avatar
        Laura

        Why sorry? Just a joke 😆 no biggie

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      8. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Eh, my mood was slightly off at the time is all

        Like

  4. Tashintheclouds Avatar
    Tashintheclouds

    You have been getting into darker territory recently.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      It comes and goes in waves. Sometimes it needs to be said. Or written, as it were.

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      1. Tashintheclouds Avatar
        Tashintheclouds

        I am no stranger to that. A stirring of old tea leaves before they resettle.

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        That’s a great way of putting it.

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  5. philosophy through photography Avatar
    philosophy through photography

    I’m sorry you feel this way. Please know you’re not alone, and talking to someone might help lighten the load.
    Well expressed , Kevin. I pray, it’s not the true story.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Moments in time like any other, my friend. They too shall pass.

      Thank you. Truly. 🙏🙏

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      1. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Well said, Kevin. Moments may come and go, but wisdom like yours sticks around.

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Not sure how wise I truly am, but I thank you for the kindness, Philo. Always 🙏😊

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      3. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Wisdom is often just kindness in disguise, Kevin, and you’re practically wearing a wisdom cloak! 🙏😊

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      4. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        It must be invisible, because I rarely see it 😄😄

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      5. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        If wisdom’s in disguise, it’s clearly mastered the art of stealth—like a ninja in a cloak of kindness! 😄🕵️‍♂️

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      6. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Indeed it has! I can’t find it anywhere! 🤪

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      7. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Haha, Kevin, wisdom can be elusive—like trying to catch a slippery fish with a net made of spaghetti! 🤪 Let’s keep searching; it’s out there somewhere, probably just hiding in plain sight! 🌟🔍

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      8. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        I’ve not found it yet!! 🤷‍♂️

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      9. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Wisdom is like your car keys—always in the last place you look, and often right under your nose.

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      10. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        I didn’t lose my car keys though…

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      11. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Ah, so your wisdom is securely parked and only needs a little polishing—good to know it’s not taking a detour!

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      12. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        I didn’t see any signs marking a detour…

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      13. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Well, wisdom often skips the detours and heads straight for the truth—signs or not! 🚀🧠

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      14. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Not even a rest stop? Interesting!

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      15. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Rest stops are for amateurs!

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      16. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Full speed ahead no limits then?

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      17. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Hit the gas and let the rest stops be a distant memory in the rearview mirror! 🚀💨

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      18. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Watch my tail lights fading, there ain’t a dry eye in the house!

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      19. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        That’s the ultimate sign of a legendary exit! When your tail lights fade and the room’s full of tears, you know you’ve left a memorable mark. 🚗💨😢

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      20. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Damn straight!! 😎😎

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      21. philosophy through photography Avatar
        philosophy through photography

        Absolutely, it’s “grand exit” like a pair of cool, confident shades! 😎🚀

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  6. Destiny Avatar
    Destiny

    the cycle’s run unfortunately… happy thoughts his way🤍💫

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      They do indeed. Such is life, as they say…
      🙏🙏

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      1. Destiny Avatar
        Destiny

        🙏🤍🙏

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  7. Drops of Ink Avatar
    Drops of Ink

    I can relate. 🤗

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, Phoebe. I know many are not immune.

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  8. alazyreader Avatar
    alazyreader

    I can relate to this poem. Beautiful yet sad poem.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you very much. I know many can understand these feelings.

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  9. Ernie 'Dawg' Avatar
    Ernie ‘Dawg’

    Very heartfelt and sorrowful brother. I feel the pain and doubt flowing off the page.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, brother. Very glad you like it. Much appreciated 🙏

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  10. Mary K. Doyle Avatar
    Mary K. Doyle

    Don’t give up, my friend. No need to fight, just persevere. I’m with you.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, Mary. Always find a way back eventually 😊

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  11. rugby843 Avatar
    rugby843

    Same

    Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPad

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Sometimes life just calls for it, I guess…

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  12. Spark of Inspiration Avatar
    Spark of Inspiration

    Kevin — Eloquently written, so many of us feel this same way. Life is a roller coaster with ups/downs. We have to soldier through until the tide changes. It’s not easy, but I once read that at times like this, it means something big and wonderful is going to happen. It is amazing how life can change instantly if we have faith. Have a nice weekend!

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Yes, these spells rarely last too long, thankfully, but we do all go through them, I’m sure.
      A nice weekend to you as well. Thank you! 😊

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  13. noga noga Avatar
    noga noga

    Hi Kevin, good luck

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you

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