The Beginning At Last

Purge

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by

Kevin
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If you knew the hate I feel inside

The hate I’ve always tried to hide

The hate that courses through my veins

My wish for you, eternal pain

To see you suffer, see you bleed

Deep inside that’s what I need

To see you shattered like a glass

To see you drowning while I pass

I would not help you, do not ask

In your pain I’ll always bask

I hope you hurt and never heal

Disdain for you is all I feel

As you lie broken clean in half

The only thing I’ll do is laugh

The joy I’ll feel at your demise

Will warm me like a new sunrise

Would I help you if you fell?

I’d rather send you straight to Hell

Every day I feel the urge

Of feelings that I cannot purge

© The Beginning At Last

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34 responses to “Purge”

  1. Amy Avatar
    Amy

    Definitely feeling it. Nice work.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      I don’t now why, but I woke up in the most foul, hateful mood today. Not felt it that bad in a long time.
      Thank you. 🙏

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      1. Amy Avatar
        Amy

        It’s good to get it out. I find raw emotion makes for the best poetry. You’re welcome.🙂

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        No, it was definitely better to write it. My headspace today was very poor to say the least lol

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      3. Amy Avatar
        Amy

        I hope today is better for you 🙂

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      4. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Good morning, Amy. Yes, better than yesterday thanks. Hope you’re doing well too! 😊

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      5. Amy Avatar
        Amy

        I’m glad today is better. 😊 I can’t complain. It’s a beautiful sunny day, the birds are singing, my cat is stalking the birds that are singing😆 (from inside the house) and meowing while walking around the house, while I’m trying to get some work done. No complaints.😊

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      6. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        One of my cats was singing a bit too much, but she finally shut up a bit lol
        Other than that quiet here, which is nice. After feeling the way I did yesterday, it’s needed.

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      7. Amy Avatar
        Amy

        My cat is still roaming the house. She had a 15 second interlude of play with her gray mousy. Now I think she went to bed after a little snack out of her breakfast bowl. Fortunately, no singing. she tends to talk and she is very chatty. She’s very sassy. I have no idea where she gets that from.😂
        Yes, I agree you need some quiet time. Not sure if it’s sunny there but if it is, enjoy it.

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      8. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        It is sunny today, yes. I think the clouds roll back in a bit tomorrow. Mine quieted down, but then the other decided it would be fun to help me type 😄

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      9. Amy Avatar
        Amy

        Oh that’s really nice of her. She knows you can’t do it without her help. Humans are sad and pathetic and they need help from cats who know everything. 😆

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      10. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Yes, her concern for the quality of my work is downright inspirational. lol
        Better a cat that knows it all than a human. They are downright insufferable lol

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      11. Amy Avatar
        Amy

        They are. The audacity to tell us what to do when they don’t even pay rent. 😂

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  2. rebuilding rob Avatar
    rebuilding rob

    Very well said! I like the accompanying art as well!

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, Rob. Just a feeling I had when I woke up today. Really angry and frustrated at the moment.

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  3. Pooja G Avatar
    Pooja G

    Wow, a really emotive and dark poem but I loved it. I was mad at someone today so I felt this in my soul lol 😂

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Glad you liked it, Pooja. Thank you!
      I think a lot of folks can relate unfortunately. lol
      This one came from the side I am not a huge fan of, but he wanted to be heard today I guess.

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      1. Pooja G Avatar
        Pooja G

        Sometimes you have to let that angry, negative person out or else they get angrier lol.

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Agreed. It would have been a long fall off a short cliff lol

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  4. Davis Davis Jr Avatar
    Davis Davis Jr

    I’d love to know who this person is that you feel so strongly about…
    Also, I find myself getting in this type of headspace when I don’t have a clear defined purpose that I’m living for. I start to look down at myself on the inside, and then project it onto other people. This is just me, though. I’m not saying you feel the same way.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      A couple someones that don’t deserve the rent free living they’ve been doing in my head. They’ve stuck it to me before and tried sticking it to a friend of mine. 99.9% of the time, I have discarded them like the meaningless dead leaves that they are, but today, despite telling myself not to react, I couldn’t help it. Needed to come out.
      My friend, you are preaching to the choir on that one. lol
      I’ve struggled with that several times in addition to chasing useless validation from others. This time, though, it was different. These people just straight up pissed me off.

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      1. Davis Davis Jr Avatar
        Davis Davis Jr

        Seeking validation from others is exactly what I’m doing right now. However, it’s also hard to balance not getting the validation from within and misconstruing the two. Oh, what a world.

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        It’s definitely a tightrope. A public acknowledgement that ya done good, kid, is nice from time to time. When it becomes like an addiction is when it gets dangerous and you end up in trouble.
        Best piece of advice I ever got was from a friend who once told me “This shit gets a lot easier when you stop giving a fuck about it”
        He wasn’t far off the mark. lol

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      3. Davis Davis Jr Avatar
        Davis Davis Jr

        Sounds like a smart man. I think he wouldn’t even need to read the book How to Stop GIving a Fuck lol

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      4. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Considering he said that to me over ten year ago, I’d say not lol

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      5. GodsChild Avatar
        GodsChild

        I need to lose weight fast it’s making sick and suicidal I drink 99 proof shots every day a whole sleeve

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  5. Destiny Avatar
    Destiny

    oops…😬
    never getting on your bad side, Kevin 🤭
    Lol just kidding…

    emotions running kind of flow… brilliantly expressed 🤍

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      I was obscenely pissed off today. Not been like that in awhile and truly dislike it. It’s not the message I like to send to people. But, like everyone else, I’m human I guess. 🤷‍♂️

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      1. Destiny Avatar
        Destiny

        human it is…and entitled too…the dislike works on our side too…lol we will try and avoid 😁

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        It was justified today. At least I think it was and that’s all that matters really lol

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    2. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      And thank you 🙏🙏

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      1. Destiny Avatar
        Destiny

        most welcome 🙏🤍

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  6. Dr. Neo Avatar
    Dr. Neo

    Captivating!

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you so much! 🙏

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