Edit: I was just rereading this poem from way back months ago and decided to repost it today. I have changed a few words for purposes of flow, but the core remains intact.
In darkest heart is where I dwell
Deep within this sweltering hell
Far from life and far from love
Far from Heaven, sweet above
Far from family, far from friends
Nerves frayed to their very ends
Every sound and every twitch
Another body in a ditch
When nightfall comes, I cannot sleep
Some nights I only lay and weep
I dream of days so far away
An actor in this devil’s play
I play my part, I hate it so
Will I ever see my child grow?
When I go home will I be blind?
Or will I even have my mind?
Will I spiral? Go insane?
Help me God, please take this pain
Want to curl up, want to cry
Just watched another buddy die
Just what is it we’re fighting for?
I’ve fallen deep, can take no more
Please save me from this wretched Hell
This darkest heart is where I dwell
© The Beginning At Last
The Beginning At Last 
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