A moment of contemplation
01/07/25: Looking back on this post today with a hint of irony, as I am currently taking stock of where I’m at with some things and questioning myself. I don’t really know that I have accomplished what I set out to do. Have I improved? Have I made a difference? Am I different? Have I learned a damn thing?
The end of 2023 and the whole of 2024 was a ride with a lot of baggage and more than a couple rough miles. As I read back on this, I can see the optimism I had and the attempts I was making. Today, frankly, I feel like they are a bar that’s set far too high. But, that’s more my own hangups than anything else.
As I state in the final sentence, it’s a constant work in progress, so in fairness, I guess the bumps are to be expected. However, that doesn’t mean I enjoy hitting them. Here’s to soldiering on in 2025 and doing the best we can.
P.S. The yin/yang featured image is the second one I ever generated on an offbeat historical note.
01/07/24:
This prompt somewhat distills down the reason I started this blog in the first place. I started it on the premise of taking some of the tough lessons I had learned, breaking them down and trying to improve myself. With luck, I hope to help others who deal with some of the same issues I do.
Truthfully, for me, there’s a lot of things I could do differently. But the root cause to most of my headaches has been my tendencies to internalize everything and chase external validation.
2025: Still working on it.
Those are the two things I really need to focus on and I have made some good strides.
In the past four weeks or so, I have learned to appreciate myself a lot more and realize that there are very few opinions beyond my own that mean a damned thing.
Of course, like most other folks, I feel it’s great to be liked, but what I mean here is just plain accepting that not everyone is going to like me. It’s just part of being human.
It’s a constant work in progress, and it’s not always easy, but the difference it’s made so far has been totally worth it.
Keep freaking pushing, folks!
The Beginning At Last 
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