Hope everyone’s been doing well and having a great week thus far.
I haven’t been posting much other than poems and some pics lately, so I figured I’d take a break from that for a second and put up a regular, normal day-to-day post.
I’ve been going down some slightly darker and weirder pathways with my stuff (Sorry, I don’t consider it “real” writing, thus I won’t call it such 😄) recently, mainly because that’s the majority of what’s coming to me.
Why?
Hell if I know, kids.
Well, that’s not entirely true.
I “kinda” know why.
Because I’ve been lacking intensity.
I’ve had a few things on my mind that have caused me to feel stagnant. I’m caught in between thoughts on a lot of things, so I’ve just been spinning my wheels debating a bunch of assorted scenarios and ideas.
I am also awaiting the outcome of something else which will help me make a more informed decision on some things.
In short, that somewhat frustrates me, and those frustrations sometimes make their way to the page.
Once I get a bit angry or agitated, the words tend to flow like water.
As I told someone in a recent comment reply, I think I do “pissed off” fairly well.
Even if I’m not hellfire and brimstone mad, a bit of anger goes a long way, and oddly, it makes me feel better. I also feel a bit more vital and alive, because I feel like I have things to prove, and that lights a fire under me.
Too much anger and frustration can be a highly detrimental thing, of course.
But, and it’s not always easy, if you can find the right chemical mixture, then it can be very productive.
I becomes something better than anger.
It becomes fuel. It becomes intensity.
I don’t really like feeling frustrated or angry, but I do rather like when it channels itself in a productive way.
It’s gotten me to be a bit more focused at work, with my diet and exercise, and to a very small degree, with the stuff I posted recently.
We may not want, nor even should be, “on” all the time. But, it probably doesn’t hurt to keep the pilot light lit for when you need to turn up the flame.
On that note, I bid you all a good day and thank you for reading.
P.S.
This was written while I was half-asleep, so forgive me if it goes astray. 😉
The Beginning At Last 
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