Tag: anxiety
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Flicker To A Flame
When I first clicked this pic, I had thought to write a poem as an accompaniment to Inner Mounting Flames. But, as I sat here sipping my coffee and listening to “Road To Nowhere” by Ozzy Osbourne, a switch inside me flipped and I decided I’m just gonna speak my piece. “The wreckage of my…
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Thousand Yards (When In Rome)
Thousand yard stare Today Today, I ceased to care The fire burned me This life, it broke me This life rebuilt me In it’s own twisted, Perverted image When in Rome When in Rome When in Rome The lines on my face Each one, a scar A lesson How it truly is How it must…
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Just Another Stone In The Road
I love when WP lobs me a softball Makes it really easy. 😄 I only have to go back a little over a year to when I lost my job. Everything was going along perfectly fine, and then some mistakes were made, and next thing you know, bam! I was out on my ass. What…
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When in doubt, act.
Another old post, but one that got a read today, so I figured others might be interested as well. I also took the liberty of adding some pics, and my sweet af logo. One of the biggest issues I’ve had to contend with since being out of work is figuring out exactly what the heck…
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Sometimes by miles…
This is a post from last year. I was rereading it as a little reminder to myself of just how life can be. We all need it sometimes. I also took the opportunity to update the images and add my cool new logo. Otherwise, the post remains unchanged from when it was originally written. Enjoy.…
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Treat Yourself Like a Friend
09/21/24: This is an older post I wrote back when I first started this blog. The tone of my site has changed a lot since I wrote this, but in light of recent events, and on the off chance it may help someone else, I am going to go ahead and repost it. Sometimes when…
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Set Up For The Kill
Dropped me in the dark and you left me here for dead Can you please explain what was going through your head? Perfectly you set me, set me right up for the kill Tell me, was it worth it? Tell me, did you get a thrill? Didn’t see it coming and I really don’t know…
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The Perils of External Validation
Note: Something I read today brought this old post to mind, so I decided to put it up again. Changed the featured image and made some small edits, but the piece remains unchanged beyond that. Everyone loves to be loved. It’s just a simple fact of life. We humans are social creatures and we need…
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Ninja Toxicity
One topic I seem to hear coming up over and over in discussions with my friends is the topic of “weird vibes” and subtle airs of toxicity either in their personal or professional lives, and sometimes in both. “Toxicity” is one of those buzzwords I try to avoid, but unfortunately, it’s often the most accurate…
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The Subtle Art of Giving Up
A momentary lapse For a moment I forgot I had found the will to fight And then I asked myself for what? Swim against the tide Or climbing up a hill I thought it paid to try But I find I’ve had my fill Chasing down a dream But I found it’s just a joke…
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All Too Easy
This one’s a piece of cake. I’d have started looking for a job the second I had that feeling in my gut that things were going to go terribly awry. If I had just listened to my instincts and started looking to get the hell out of Dodge, I might not have been sick and…
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Forked Up Friday
As another week draws to a close, I sit here tired, sore and contemplating life over coffee number two; soon to be coffee number three, for those keeping score. My moods have been up and down for a couple weeks now, as most of you are painfully aware. Quite truthfully, they still are. And that…
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All this time…
Wasted. I’ll give the preemptive warning now: this is probably going to be all over the map. 😄 I don’t know if it’s this roller coaster I am on lately or what, but I feel like I am all over the freaking map where time is concerned. In theory, I should, and do, have way…
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Peaks and Valleys
Peaks and valleys, they abound Finish one, another round Always climbing, never stops Climb again to reach the top Tired, sore and feeling lost Is the climbing worth the cost? Staring up, a peak so high Don’t think you’ll ever touch the sky But still you try, God only knows Pelted by the freezing snows…
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There Comes A Time
There comes a time in every life Cut so deeply by the knife Sliced so deeply to the bone A greater pain you’ve never known A state of shock as there you lie A look of panic in your eyes As claret flows in floods abound You think of all you’ve lost and found Before…
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Hello
Hello all, I hope this post finds everyone well. I would like to thank you all for your messages of support and friendship. Please forgive my lack of comments, but rest assured they are read and appreciated. I am currently going through a period of adjustment in my life, and it is affecting me both…
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Idle Hands
Idle hands and active mind Wander through a life unkind In a hole and in a haze Wandering through a twisted maze And though I try to leave this place Reality is in my face Mocking me at every turn A secret I have yet to learn Don’t want to scream don’t want to shout…
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Like I Was Never Here
**Explicit Language/Offensive Content Warning.** You tried to make me bow You tried to make me kneel And now it’s all too clear You don’t care just how I feel You would never understand You could never ever know The hate inside my heart Basking in the ashen glow You think you understand You don’t know…
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Just let me stay down
This is really just me having a ramble, so don’t mind me, and apologies in advance. Recently, I felt quite down and out for a multitude of reasons. One was I physically felt like absolute shit. The mere act of breathing felt like a monumental fucking task. This is why I really do not like…
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Comedic Timing
This question could not have come at a more inopportune time, as I currently find little humor in anything. I guess that in itself is a bit of a divine joke. To those who know me fairly well, my apologies for my lack of engagement. I truly don’t feel I have much constructive to say…
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The Chains That Bind
The chains that bindHeavyImmobileUncaringSteel to skinColdPiercingBruisingIron lacerates deeplyClaretFlowingStingingThe captor laughs incessantCursingSpittingTauntingTemples throb a pure barrageAngryVengefulUnrelentingVeins pulse a river rapidPowerStrengthGrowingSinews corded shatter steelTwistingWrenchingBreakingHusks of steel fall to the floorSweatingGaspingFreedom There’s an old song by Eagles that says “So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains, and we never even know we have…
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Keep Climbing
While I don’t intend to completely do away with the image-only posts, lately I feel compelled to add at least a few words when I post them. We often hear the phrase “peaks and valleys” when talking about the game of life, and it is a fairly accurate descriptor. There’s no greater feeling than reaching…
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If you’re walking through Hell
Walk through it like you own it. I was just going to drop a couple pics and call it a day, but I decided to add a quick commentary to the proceedings. We all have times in our life where we are walking through Hell. Sometimes it’s different levels of Hell (apologies to Dante), but…
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Bury Yourself
Good day to everyone! A funny thing happened to me along the path of this little blogging adventure. When I started it, my intention was to post about some of the challenges I’d come up against and the lessons I had learned along the way. My hope was to help others and bring some positive…
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Junk It All (Prompt: 01/16/24)
There are a ton of ways this can be interpreted. Physically, mentally, emotionally, etc. Funny thing is about two months ago, I went on a tear and threw a bunch of stuff out that had been hanging around forever. Finally got sick of it and tossed it. Ironically, about a week before I got fired…
The Beginning At Last 