Tag: stress
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When in doubt, act.
Another old post, but one that got a read today, so I figured others might be interested as well. I also took the liberty of adding some pics, and my sweet af logo. One of the biggest issues I’ve had to contend with since being out of work is figuring out exactly what the heck…
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Sometimes by miles…
This is a post from last year. I was rereading it as a little reminder to myself of just how life can be. We all need it sometimes. I also took the opportunity to update the images and add my cool new logo. Otherwise, the post remains unchanged from when it was originally written. Enjoy.…
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In Darkest Heart (Poem)
Edit: I was just rereading this poem from way back months ago and decided to repost it today. I have changed a few words for purposes of flow, but the core remains intact. In darkest heart is where I dwell Deep within this sweltering hell Far from life and far from love Far from Heaven,…
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Treat Yourself Like a Friend
09/21/24: This is an older post I wrote back when I first started this blog. The tone of my site has changed a lot since I wrote this, but in light of recent events, and on the off chance it may help someone else, I am going to go ahead and repost it. Sometimes when…
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You Can Never Get Too Low…
Note: Another repost. I changed a couple small things and added an image. Hopefully someone, somewhere gets something out of this piece. Originally posted 01/08/24. For the past couple of days I have been struggling a bit with what to write. I’ve mostly been responding to the daily prompts and playing around with image creator…
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The Perils of External Validation
Note: Something I read today brought this old post to mind, so I decided to put it up again. Changed the featured image and made some small edits, but the piece remains unchanged beyond that. Everyone loves to be loved. It’s just a simple fact of life. We humans are social creatures and we need…
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Ninja Toxicity
One topic I seem to hear coming up over and over in discussions with my friends is the topic of “weird vibes” and subtle airs of toxicity either in their personal or professional lives, and sometimes in both. “Toxicity” is one of those buzzwords I try to avoid, but unfortunately, it’s often the most accurate…
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Random Reflections
Hibernation is good and sometimes necessary. Solitude often has a negative connotation. It’s not the same as loneliness. When one feels like they have to censor themselves or walk on eggshells, especially in their own space, something is terribly wrong. If one is still long enough, they can sense the energies around them. I sense…
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The Subtle Art of Giving Up
A momentary lapse For a moment I forgot I had found the will to fight And then I asked myself for what? Swim against the tide Or climbing up a hill I thought it paid to try But I find I’ve had my fill Chasing down a dream But I found it’s just a joke…
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All Too Easy
This one’s a piece of cake. I’d have started looking for a job the second I had that feeling in my gut that things were going to go terribly awry. If I had just listened to my instincts and started looking to get the hell out of Dodge, I might not have been sick and…
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Mostly Silly Stuff
It’s not usually the big stuff that gets me nervous. It’s usually silly little stuff like making a post or going to a party where I don’t know anyone. It used to be stuff like job interviews, etc., but those don’t bother me much at all anymore. Maybe because I know my skill set now…
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Iron G in the House
So, as I said earlier today, I was going to try another of my incredibly stupid, “why would anyone willingly do that?” workout experiments. Due to my current work environment, the need to be able to move easily under high heat, high stress conditions with a modicum of strength is paramount. I am not in…
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Forked Up Friday
As another week draws to a close, I sit here tired, sore and contemplating life over coffee number two; soon to be coffee number three, for those keeping score. My moods have been up and down for a couple weeks now, as most of you are painfully aware. Quite truthfully, they still are. And that…
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All this time…
Wasted. I’ll give the preemptive warning now: this is probably going to be all over the map. 😄 I don’t know if it’s this roller coaster I am on lately or what, but I feel like I am all over the freaking map where time is concerned. In theory, I should, and do, have way…
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There Comes A Time
There comes a time in every life Cut so deeply by the knife Sliced so deeply to the bone A greater pain you’ve never known A state of shock as there you lie A look of panic in your eyes As claret flows in floods abound You think of all you’ve lost and found Before…
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Hello
Hello all, I hope this post finds everyone well. I would like to thank you all for your messages of support and friendship. Please forgive my lack of comments, but rest assured they are read and appreciated. I am currently going through a period of adjustment in my life, and it is affecting me both…
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Idle Hands
Idle hands and active mind Wander through a life unkind In a hole and in a haze Wandering through a twisted maze And though I try to leave this place Reality is in my face Mocking me at every turn A secret I have yet to learn Don’t want to scream don’t want to shout…
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Like I Was Never Here
**Explicit Language/Offensive Content Warning.** You tried to make me bow You tried to make me kneel And now it’s all too clear You don’t care just how I feel You would never understand You could never ever know The hate inside my heart Basking in the ashen glow You think you understand You don’t know…
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Just let me stay down
This is really just me having a ramble, so don’t mind me, and apologies in advance. Recently, I felt quite down and out for a multitude of reasons. One was I physically felt like absolute shit. The mere act of breathing felt like a monumental fucking task. This is why I really do not like…
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Comedic Timing
This question could not have come at a more inopportune time, as I currently find little humor in anything. I guess that in itself is a bit of a divine joke. To those who know me fairly well, my apologies for my lack of engagement. I truly don’t feel I have much constructive to say…
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When the Stone Crushes You
Apologies in advance for what is mostly going to be a stream of consciousness ramble. Yes, the title and images are a reference to Sisyphus and that pesky stone. Most days as of late, the stone feels pretty light, honestly. Akin to carrying a pebble in your pocket. Barely noticeable. But a couple days ago,…
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Purge
If you knew the hate I feel inside The hate I’ve always tried to hide The hate that courses through my veins My wish for you, eternal pain To see you suffer, see you bleed Deep inside that’s what I need To see you shattered like a glass To see you drowning while I pass…
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The Chains That Bind
The chains that bindHeavyImmobileUncaringSteel to skinColdPiercingBruisingIron lacerates deeplyClaretFlowingStingingThe captor laughs incessantCursingSpittingTauntingTemples throb a pure barrageAngryVengefulUnrelentingVeins pulse a river rapidPowerStrengthGrowingSinews corded shatter steelTwistingWrenchingBreakingHusks of steel fall to the floorSweatingGaspingFreedom There’s an old song by Eagles that says “So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains, and we never even know we have…
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Keep Climbing
While I don’t intend to completely do away with the image-only posts, lately I feel compelled to add at least a few words when I post them. We often hear the phrase “peaks and valleys” when talking about the game of life, and it is a fairly accurate descriptor. There’s no greater feeling than reaching…
The Beginning At Last 