I had a lot of thoughts in mind when I created this post. Now, I sit here and find I don’t have even one. Or I have a hundred too many. Hard to tell the difference sometimes when it all sounds like static.
Maybe that’s why I started this post – I just wanted a place to clear the static.
I don’t know if this post will ever even go live. Likely it will.
If or when it does, by the time it’s live, I’ll have either been off the platform for a day or two, or have just posted recently. The reasons were several, but irrelevant to this post. Irrelevant to most everything, really.
I still did a lot of writing, some listening to music, and basically feeling lousy. Springtime, pollen and I are not the closest of allies.
What I had hoped to do was a lot of sleeping, but that didn’t exactly happen. A lot of broken sleep, but nothing good and solid.
Funny state of mind these days. Not happy, not sad, angry, etc.
Just…Here, I guess.
The other funny thing? I don’t really mind it.
While some might bemoan the absence of emotion, I almost find it refreshing.
Not looking for, or expecting happiness, sadness, and so on, almost allows you to be more free in an odd way.
Is it a good forever plan? Probably not, at least not taken to the max. But being completely removed from any thoughts or feelings for a few days might be a nice “reset” for the heart and the psyche.
It’s almost like being a Vulcan on Star Trek. For a moment in time, you are viewing things through a totally different lens.
The Art of Detachment in it’s extreme, I suppose.
I don’t know that I had an endgame in mind when I started writing this.
But I guess that’s the beauty if it.
It doesn’t have to be anything other than what it is.
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