AKA: Musings of a Sleep Deprived Mind
I feel like this could kind of dovetail off my last daily prompt reply a bit.
The older I get, the more I wonder about the art of not caring. Some would call it “detachment”, but truly, I am talking a step further and absolutely, totally not caring. Based on anecdotal observations, I can say that it truly seems to work for a lot of people. Somehow, they don’t give a tinkerer’s damn about anything and always land on their feet. Often, in a better position than they were previously. Why is that?
This is all just random thoughts running through my head, mind you. When you’re running on about three hours sleep, these are the things you sometimes think about. Some would say I am chronically sleep deprived and they may well be right. 😄
Funnily enough, this post has been sitting in drafts for a few days and just recently, I had a few conversations that somewhat relate, so I am actually wrapping those thoughts in here as well.
What if there were value in not caring, but also in not feeling? Or feeling substantially less, at least.
Emotions. A pesky thing sometimes, are they not?
Is the risk worth the reward? Sometimes, maybe. Sometimes, I’m really not so sure. Again, anecdotally, I see a lot of hurt and pain in this world.
Sometimes, I truly wonder if blocking out emotions, in an odd way, could be a healthier thing.
While everyone else is busy trying to remove their walls, I am speculating that perhaps more walls would be better for one’s own peace of mind. Some things are better left alone. Possibly far more than we even realize.
Someone even brought up the great point that it could possibly stifle one’s creativity to block too many emotions. Perhaps they are right, as I do find the urge to write poetry is minimal for me these days.
But, that is when one has to decide for themselves – Is the ROI enough to deal with the emotions? Is there a balance? Or is balance just some impossible thing we tell ourselves we’re seeking, yet know doesn’t truly exist?
It seems that everyone is always “so close”, and yet they never really get there. It’s kind of like the old work/life balance – easy to say, a lot tougher attain.
Anyhow, these are the things I sometimes toss around while I’m idly thinking. Perhaps it will give you something to chew on as well.
I don’t know that there is any right or wrong answer. I think it’s all a matter of perspective. What works for one may not work for another.
Stay well, friends.
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