The Beginning At Last

Alone In The Crowd

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by

Kevin
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No Theme Thursday (03/21/24)

My NTT entry for this week.

Amidst the hustle of the street

A thousand eyes refuse to meet

I’m different so they look away

It happens every fucking day

I once was sad, now I don’t care

Your kind, I see them everywhere

In the stores, or on a train

Deep within it caused me pain

The outcast, once myself I blamed

And then a revelation came

The problem no, it is not me

It’s every one of you, I see

You do your thing and I’ll do mine

You aren’t worth my fucking time

Silence in the chaos loud

I’ll stand alone within the crowd

© The Beginning At Last

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40 responses to “Alone In The Crowd”

  1. Drops of Ink Avatar
    Drops of Ink

    The first thing I want to say is, that I hope this poem was not inspired by anything you personally experienced. Whether it was or not though, I’m deeply sorry to whomever is made to feel this way for any reason “different” or not. It’s BS. It’s why I like animals more than people. They don’t judge based on immaterial things. If you’re a good person inside, they can sense it and react accordingly. People on the other hand…. 😡 But I digress. Beautiful and heartfelt poem Kevin. It hit me in the feels. 🤍🤍

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, Phoebe. 🤗
      It’s somewhat based on my own experiences, but also on my previous mindsets too. Yes, people can be cruel at times, but it sometimes takes us a long time to see that it doesn’t mean there is something wrong with us. We can choose to believe what others say or think about us, or we can choose our own truth. It took me a long time, but eventually, I chose my own truth. 🙂

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  2. SiriusSea Avatar
    SiriusSea

    Strong !! ❤

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you 💪

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  3. Drops of Ink Avatar
    Drops of Ink

    I’m still working on my self-doubt to be honest and I find it hard not to take what others think to heart.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      It is not easy, to be sure. I still struggle with it at times as well, but as time goes on, I realize that I am worth far more than what anyone might think of me.
      And so are you. 😊
      As you said, if you are a good person inside, those who matter will recognize it. The key is recognizing it in yourself too.

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  4. rugby843 Avatar
    rugby843

    Great words! I can relate.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you much! 🙏

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  5. rugby843 Avatar
    rugby843

    Thanks for telling me to check my spam folder.  I have no clue why comments are going there.😳🙄

    Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPhone

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  6. Silk Cords Avatar
    Silk Cords

    I know that feeling. The shitty thing about being an empath is that the stronger your ability, the more you feel others’ pain and the more you want to help.

    Anymore though… Piss on it.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Unfortunately, I think a lot of folks know the feeling 🙏

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      1. Silk Cords Avatar
        Silk Cords

        Yep. Empaths do tend to feel it hard, but enough said. 🙂

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  7. Amy Avatar
    Amy

    Hit me in my feels. Touching.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you 🙏

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  8. Kymber Hawke Avatar
    Kymber Hawke

    Just. Wow. I really get where this is coming from. I felt like this before, but more so when I was younger. This is really profound, Kevin.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thanks, Kymber. I think a lot of artistic minded folk can relate to this feeling. 🙏

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  9. mchelsmusings Avatar
    mchelsmusings

    I feel this. Thank you

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      My pleasure. Thank you. 🙏🙏

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      1. mchelsmusings Avatar
        mchelsmusings

        You’re welcome and thank you!
        This is how I feel most days at work 😢😡😳🥺

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Aw, I’m sorry. It’s tough to get up and go somewhere day after day knowing that’s the way it will likely be.
        It was like that for me a lot in school.

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      3. mchelsmusings Avatar
        mchelsmusings

        I’m sorry. Being an Army brat there were times I was so happy we we’re moving. I’m determined to be good at my job. And people are going to judge, label and/or be stupid. While I’m no longer a paid therapist, I still know how to deal with it. But yeah, it sucks! It was a lot worse at the mental health center I worked at. Patrick says he supports me if I want to look for something else. But I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️
        I’ve got other things to worry about right now. I don’t need anything else to worry about.
        And hugs!

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      4. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Even when we know how to deal with things, that doesn’t always mean it’s easy.
        It’s ironic that it would be worse at a mental health center. You’d think they’d get it is anybody would. Go figure.
        I always tell people you don’t have to stay there forever. Maybe now isn’t the time to make the move, but perhaps the door of opportunity will open when you least expect it. 🤗

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      5. mchelsmusings Avatar
        mchelsmusings

        At the center it was the bullies who were the supervisors. And the death threats from people sent by probation! One actually pulled a knife 🔪 on my in my office. We had no security and I then got in trouble for not only calling the police but pressing charges! I showed up at court and not was his jail time extended but ℹ requested a restraining order! The judge granted it.
        But yeah the supervisors, in all areas were and still are bullies!! The 3rd CEO has put them into the red, they’re 2 million in debt. And they cancelled people’s 401 funds. Thankfully I had pulled mine out and put it into an account at my bank. But yeah I didn’t think that was legal. And then she started firing everyone. 😂 I told them they were going to regret hiring her. I did the research they didn’t. The people that quit after I did are also lol’ing about it. Seriously less than a year and 2 Million in debt!! 😳

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      6. mchelsmusings Avatar
        mchelsmusings

        I hate autocorrect after the fact! The jail time was extended after he pulled a knife on me. Probation violation threatening to kill me and then pulling a knife on me.

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      7. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        Again, Fucking insane.

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      8. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        That’s fucking insane. There’s no nice way to say it beyond that lol

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      9. mchelsmusings Avatar
        mchelsmusings

        Exactly! I’m surprised I stayed there for 14-15 years. But I had started doing that work quitting while working there. Where you show up do what you have to and then nothing else. I was looking and applying and updating my resume while there. 😂

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      10. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        I can’t blame you lol
        14 years? Damn.

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  10. aastha Avatar
    aastha

    This one hit so hard personally. I always felt this way until I realised I was not the issue. Loved this one to bits brother 🤗💖

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, little sister. I am glad it resonated with you. 😊🤗

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  11. Destiny Avatar
    Destiny

    it’s always about the attitude, Kevin… eventually we get around to the right ones for the right times….well done I say 🤍

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Indeed we do, Lady Destiny.
      Thank you 🙏

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      1. Destiny Avatar
        Destiny

        pleasure, Chief 🤍

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      2. Kevin Avatar
        Kevin

        🙏🙏

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  12. Liz Avatar
    Liz

    I can relate to this from when I was at school. Especially in my teens when I felt it more to my 20’s. And sometimes, at times as an adult. But now over the years, regardless of feeling it at times still, at the same time not giving a toss. So as you say, they do their thing and I will do mine.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you, Liz. Yes, it seems that with age, we give less of a damn what others think for the most part. There are still moments, but usually far less.

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      1. Liz Avatar
        Liz

        Yes. Still moments. But far less.

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  13. Mary K. Doyle Avatar
    Mary K. Doyle

    This is an excellently worded and emotional poem, Kevin. As for me, I like different.

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    1. Kevin Avatar
      Kevin

      Thank you very much, Mary. As I got a bit older and slightly wiser, I learned to appreciate different in myself too.

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