Wasted.
I’ll give the preemptive warning now: this is probably going to be all over the map. 😄
I don’t know if it’s this roller coaster I am on lately or what, but I feel like I am all over the freaking map where time is concerned. In theory, I should, and do, have way more time than I did working my previous job.
But no matter what, I cannot, for the life of me, get a handle on time right now at all. It feels like it’s flying by at a breakneck pace one minute, and dragging total ass the next, usually when I am at work.
Yeah, I know, I know…everyone feels that way, right?
Maybe, but this is different for me. This isn’t that usual feeling we all get at times.
This is to the point that I am forgetting shit, rushing to get caught up, and generally feeling pissed off. Usually multiple times per day.
I’m the proverbial chicken separated from his head.
It makes it really tough to want or have decent interactions with anyone.
My default setting has been “get out of my effing face” for a bit now, and I don’t like that. Well, in most cases, at least.
Full disclosure: There are other reasons I have that mentality at the moment, but this constant “behind the eight ball” feeling definitely isn’t helping matters.
I keep having this odd feeling that everyone in my life wants me to explain or justify myself, and quite frankly, no.
No.
No, I don’t want to explain why I do what I do, when I do it, or where my mindset is at the moment.
But combining that feeling with this absolute disarray concerning time is more than a bit agitating.
I mean, I’m fine, but I’m not, you know? 😄
Anyhow, I’m just chalking it up to part of this adjustment period, off kilter sleep and a few other factors.
Doesn’t mean I can’t be annoyed about it in the interim though.
I really need to get to work on that whole “Master of Time, Space and Reality” thing.
The Beginning At Last 
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